Issue 82, Winter 1981
Once, indulgent lady—only once
you lay your lustrous arm
on mine (against the darkness of my soul
the incident stands out);
as if it bad just been coined, a golden moon
rose ostentatiously,
and night’s magnificence, while Paris slept,
streamed like another Seine.
Along the housefronts, out of every door
appeared attentive cats,
following like companionable ghosts
or frozen as we passed.
And even as our intimacy bloomed
in that pale radiance,
there came from you—and from that instrument
of yours, a voice so rich
habitually, exultant as a peal
of trumpets in the dawn—
there came a sound, a sigh, a plaintive note
that faltered on your lips
like a sickly, hideous, misproportioned child,
the family disgrace
long secluded from the world’s regard
in some dark hideaway.
“Nothing!” it sobbed, that sudden note of yours,
“nothing on earth is sure,
and all our human masks cannot disguise
our human selfishness;
Beauty is merely woman’s livelihood,
a well-rehearsed routine—
the flagging dancer’s discipline: to please
with automatic smiles;
hearts are not to be depended on,
they fail—like beauty and love,
until Oblivion gathers up the lot